Not my ways...

So the plan was to get to Alberta, Canada on Friday to get there before school registration which is on Saturday.

For whatever reason, God must not want me at school the first week. I can tell you I can’t wait to ask him his reasoning for this in heaven if I don’t find out in this life. Ugh, I was so looking forward to the canoe trip, which is the first week of school. And I’ll miss it. I hate passports. I hate dead end plans. I hate losing stuff all the time. Seriously, ever since I can remember, I’ve lost things. School papers, books, clothes, jewelry. You name it, I’ve probably lost it. The thing is, I usually find it exactly when I need it. I remember spending hours searching for book reports and finding them right before I was about to give up. But I always seemed to find it just in time.

Right now I’m confused.

I lost my passport that I got just a couple months ago. I remember going up the stairs with it, to bring it to my room. But now I don’t know if it actually got there of if I subconsciously set it down somewhere. Either way, I can’t find it. It gets complicated because I just realized my passport was missing the night before I was moving to school in Canada. My parents and I searched as hard and long as we could before giving up. Our only other option was to get an expedited passport which could come in 2 days. We decided to have the passport mailed to a relative in North Dakota so we could at least get a little driving in. However, we only made it as far as Grand Forks when we discovered that the passport would not come when we thought. It was a good plan except we didn’t select the correct mail option so as of now it will be another week until the passport is in my hands. And I would still have to travel there either by driving which takes 24 hours or flying, which would be a complicated because I have a lot of things to bring with me. I’ve prayed so hard that God would help me find my passport and then when that didn’t happen, that everything with the expedited passport would go through. Well neither happened. It’s frustrating.

I have to hold onto the truth that
ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD
TO THOSE WHO LOVE GOD.
He still is in control, even when everything seems to not be working out how we want. I’ve always been told “it’s not our ways, but God’s ways.” That’s true now, then isn’t it?

God, please tell me how I should get to school. For whatever reason, you’re holding me back. My parents and I have tried everything in our power to get to school on time, but nothing came through. Not our timing, I suppose.

Let’s take away the magnifying glass. No one's hurt. No one died. I’ll miss a week of awesome bonding time and memories at school, but I’ll still get there. (Hopefully not too many awkward moments from coming late... Hate awkward moments.)

We’re not sure how I’ll be heading to school, if I fly or we all drive. Please pray that God would show his ways to me.

“Here before your altar,
I am letting go of all I’ve held
of every motive
every burden
everything that’s of myself
and I just want to wait on you, my God
I just want to dwell on who you are
Beautiful
beautiful, Lord I am lost for more to say
Beautiful
beautiful, Oh Lord you’re beautiful to me
Here, in your presence
I am not afraid of brokenness
I just want to wait on you, my God
to dwell on who you are
-Wait patiently upon the Lord
be still, my soul, be still-”

- singer/songwriter Kari Jobe